MOMMY-ING WITH MENTAL ILLNESS

Parenting in general is difficult. There is a real struggle to find a harmonious balance between your needs and those of your child(ren). Sometimes it seems more impossible than a difficult task. Those parents who are simultaneously coping with mental illness tend to see those struggles amplified. The fact that I never wanted children is […]

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THE TROUBLE WITH WORDS

Mental health has gone mainstream. Viral even. But mental health is not mental illness. Even though the two terms are increasingly used as if they are synonyms. For those living in the US, May is Mental Health Awareness Month, here in Canada awareness is raised in October. Regardless, I thought it a relevant time to […]

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DOMINION OF GREY

When I was diagnosed with my first mental illness I was about fifteen years old. It was explained to me like this… …if you think of inherently happy people as being in the white and severely depressed people as being in the black…you live in the grey… …and, to me, that made perfect sense. It […]

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MIND OVER THE ATLANTIC

I’ve pinched myself a million times. Literally. There’s welts and bruises. And I still cannot believe it is true… Me, the gal with Type 1 Diabetes and a bunch of mental illnesses, was asked to come and sit on a panel, next to several awe-inspiring folks, and share my story. The story of how I […]

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MY BODY & ME

And another piece ended up on the floor. I was trying on my entire closet worth of clothing and, much to my dismay and embarassment, very little of it fit properly…if it fit at all. I was recently offered an amazing opportunity but that opportunity forced my hand and this impromptu fashion show. Has it […]

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THE RESOLUTION SOLUTION

It’s a new year. We earthbound folk have circled the sun again. Whoo-fucking-hoo. I suspect we humans are creatures of habit regardless of our desire for spontaneity. We want structure though we often shun it. A game of cat and mouse ensues as we build routine and simultaneously evade it. It is thought the practice […]

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HOLIDAYS WITHOUT THE HAPPY

This post is going to come out of nowhere. Think Nowhere Man from The Beatles’ Yellow Submarine movie. Jeremy. There’s quite literally a million and one things traveling at light speed through my brain right now. And that makes organizing thoughts and cohesion nearly impossible. Truth: it’s fucking impossible. I wanted share some of my […]

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JUST ANXIETY & ME

Having been together a while, we have a routine. But it doesn’t mean our relationship lacks surprise. Anxiety has definitely continued to bring the unexpected in to my life. A lot of people do not understand what it means to live with mental illness. Some people view it as a mechanism employed to shirk responsibility. […]

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NOT QUITE THERE

I wish I had a better beginning for you. I wish there was a cohesiveness to what is to follow, but there likely won’t be. I fear it may be a bit broken. Garbled. And, possibly incoherent. For nearly two weeks I have attempted to compile, to create, to commit to paper/screen, a post about […]

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CAMP CONSTERNATION

I wish I could pinpoint the moment I lost my ability to happily be present in public. But I haven’t yet found the one who grants wishes. I have thought long and hard about what happened and when. But I get so wrapped up in all the details that it becomes a muddled mess. I […]

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